The real idiot

There are plenty of things about human beings that irritate me. One that is high on my irritation list is the need to be the center of attention. The need to be liked, ok I can understand that in a way. But the need to be the center? I just don't get it.

Shouting, fake interest, bad jokes, showing off, laughing (too loudly), giving others nicknames.

-Shouting is okay in case of an emergency, during a sportsgame (as a player) or at the tv in an intimate circle of friends. Not to get attention from all people in the room.

-Fake interest is never okay, I have been blamed in my days for not showing interest. But it's more honest to show the fact that people can't interest you than to pretend, altough it is socialy accepted to do so.

- Bad jokes: some people are just not funny. Still some of the 'audience' laughs. Which is worse, I don't know yet. Maybe the 'funny' person doesn't realise he is a boring fucker? In that case I can blame the few people around him, lauging or getting into what was just said by the 'funny' guy. In any case, someone who is not funny but keeps on trying to is an idiot. And laughing with an idiot is idiotic. So I decided that the person and his crowd are all to blame, that's why I take my distance from a group where the above happens.

- Showing off: is this ever permitted? I'm not sure, I am tempted to say 'no'. But I show off myself at times. The difference between me and certain people I have in mind, is that I know about it and can realise how stupid I behave. The fact that some don't realise and keep talking, keep showing, keep needing to be praised... Oh, boy, oh girl, can we also call those people idiots? Perhaps they are bright in the intelligence department, but believe me, intelligent people can be idiots. Are they more too blame than 'dumb' people? Oh no, just as much. In 'dumb' people we can sometimes admire the showing off, it becomes just too funny. For the 'smart' people it is just annoying, they are the top of the idiot race.

- Laughing at unfunny things is already pretty low, as I explained before. Laughing too loud at it is socialy unacceptable. Even at a good joke it should never be done.  And it mostly is the 'one that hungers to be the center' that laughs the loudest, just as a way to get accepted, to be known as the one that likes certain people. This is just so sad, I saw it yesterday, I sighed, took up a book and left to read. People can really be a waste of time.

-Perhaps the dumbest thing I heard yesterday was 'give me a nickname'. Why would someone want that? It can be a teenager asking this, but in a group of people, why would you 'need' a nickname? Nicknames grow out of something, you can't 'create' a nickname for someone at the moment. Okay, I can, but I'm in a way just better than most of the people I see. So please accept not having a nickname, or when you show of your nickname, know how to pronounce it right. The guy I heard yesterday couldn't even pronounce his own nickname, so just shut up, ow please shut up.

I am not an artist in doing the 'social acceptable' thing. And yesterday, as I left the table, I realised: thank God I am not. How much hours would I have wasted listening to people that just could not say any useful thing? Maybe without that 'I need to be the center'-guy it would have been different, maybe the other idiots were nice? Or did I want to be the center, and can't I admit it? Don't I have what it takes? I guess, once again, I'm the real idiot after all...