Was I that boring?

Do I believe that we can die from boredom? What a strange question is this one you ask me, my friend. But sometimes when you talk to me, I wish I had a gun to shoot myself... You can be so boring, so annoying, so trivial. In those moments I wonder how we even became friends.

On those moments I just want to walk away, leave you alone and come back another time. Shall we say I do that from now on? Or will that affect or friendship? You rather have me sitting here, pretending to listen to you while my thoughts drift off to a more adventurous story? Do you wish me to pretened to be amazed by some of your tales, even the ones that after two sentences bore me and make me want to sleep just to be woken by the sound of your mouth that stops to move? I really try to live up to what you want from me, but at this moment, my dear, I just can't. Right now, altough the question you asked me was highly interessting, right now I feel like being alone. Not even alone, just with anyone but you. Is that okay?

Why do I even ask you this, it should be okay, it is how I feel. But I don't want to hurt you, or maybe I do. Maybe some pain will make you interesting, now you are so human, so like everyone else. I expect more from you, I expect you to exceed my expectations, but you can not. You are what you are and at some points, I just don't like it. Am I too that boring, am I as human as you? Am I as lame and ignorant as you and all the rest? Hu? Why do you walk away? What?! Are you serious? I am boring you? *Shouting* Okay, hope to see you later! Bye!