Cold Turkey

When you walk around and feel dizzy, lay down.
It feels good, right? Close your eyes. Rest.
Smile, imagine you are a cat. Spin, don't fight your contracting muscles.
The skin covering your face feels like it will shake off, let it shake.
Your biceps seems to be alive, let it live. Your legs feel too cold, cover them.
Your chest hurts, your back contracts, you want to pull your legs towards your chest.

Hold a pillow, breath deeply. Lay on your back, look straight ahead. Feel your lips shaking.
Don't stop the saking, your eyelids want attention. They trill worse than an earthquake.
Smile again, laugh out loud. Sing, don't shout.
It's cold, but you will now pretend it is warm.
Stretch, touch the air around.
Think of your friends, accept them.

Wonder about women, agree to it: you love them.
Don't fight your headache, it will go away.
Try to refind your equilibrium, try to stand up.
You lose it, you fall onto the bed.
Get up again, it's only your body fighting your mind.
Pretend to be a dog, bark. Chase away the cat.

Stretch your back, touch your face. It is still there.
Get back to bed, drink plenty of water. Sleep.
Wake up, go outside.
Greet the people you see. Your head hurts, your brain bangs and wants out.
Don't give in to your shaky self, the mind keeps playing tricks.
Think about God, love Him. Be spiritual, it's your last resort.

Why again were you doing this?
To fight the ideas they gave you, you want to be free from external control.
You believe you are stronger than the society made substance, perhaps you are.
It's been two weeks, your body shakes, your mind screams, you still breath.
You lose weight, your build up muscles break.
You feel like fainting, you keep going.

She opens up her arms.
You run into them.
She always wanted to have a lonely child.
You are willing to give yourself, to let her drain you completely.
In your mind you are special, you bring her joy.
In reality for her, it is just another night.

You lay in bed again, no more female warmth.
No baby around, but plenty of them in your mind.
Running from you, laughing at you, dancing and screaming, driving you crazy.
You let them seduce you, you embrace the cold and smile.
You drink water, you shake. Keep shaking, you are strong, although almost pure bone now.
The sun will return some day and you'll be pure of heart, free from the mindplaying drugs.